Never Expect. Never Assume. Never Demand.
These words have thought me a hell load of things which I never give importance in the past. Hmm. Expecting for a second chance should have made me back on track but like all love stories in real life.. Expectations are mere cover ups of wounds that no one else can see. I woke up one day having realized that that love affair won’t do me any good. He was overly immature and i was overly dramatic. I needed more than I expected of him. I yearned for something to hold on to But I was given nothing. It was a time to let go. What we have or might as well say, what we HAD was magical at the moment but it became a nightmare as it reached the end.
He told me I was only one of the girls he just played with. But i know deep in my heart that he was real to me. maybe he was just using that scheme to lead me on and give out wrong interpretations then finally I will LET GO. I should have never expected him to love me back the way I was willing to give. I was enraged and all i could ever wished for was for me to have revenge. I was so eager to see him down, scarred and be left alone just like what i had experienced. I was embraced with motives and methods of his destruction. I planned and did whatever I think is possible. By the time I felt that i was winning the battle…..
(To be Continued)
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again, I want a LOVE like this. AWW.
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This is for the man that I thought I would spend my days laughing with; my nights dreaming of, yet left me with mornings of what ifs.
This is our story.
If you think about it now, I deeply regret how everything has turned out. Well not that I regret having known the person, it’s just that if I had taken my time, it should have never ended like this. It was fast yet it felt different. I felt a different kind of love that I never felt before in that short span of time. I know it was real. I believe it was real when we were at the moment. He was real to me, his feelings, his words and his actions. All of them were real and I stand to believe on them. Yet indeed, whirlwind romance doesn’t succeed in the end. It will only give you pain and a realization that love should not be rushed at all. It really takes times because that 5-second happiness can turn into a whole lifetime of regrets in just a blink of an eye.
I was a very happy girl in a never perfect relationship with a man who has loved me with all of his heart and soul. In fact, if you were in my place, you would not dare to have it exchange for anything in the world. What more can I asked for? He gave me everything I want. He does everything I say. His world revolves around me. I was his only one and I don’t doubt a single of it. He was so madly, deeply and truly in love with me and at that time, I THOUGHT I WAS TOO. I was happy, we were happy together. Problems come and go and tested our relationship and yet, we didn’t care. We were strong at that time and we thought nothing could tear us down but I was wrong. I never thought that one unexpected afternoon can changed everything that I thought I always knew about myself.
Someone, a complete stranger came barging into my heart and since then, I was never the same. I never knew he existed or if I had known I didn’t care. I was happy with my life as it is. I never wanted to know him but destiny or whatever it is, made me know him still. I was tricked. I know I won’t like him! He was the one who came rushing in and make me want to fall. I didn’t want to fall. It was very clear to me that I won’t fall with a total stranger and so, I was rest assured that offering him my friendship won’t hurt a bone. And then it started…. And it changed me. L
Out of the blue, we started to feel different.. There was something more and it got stronger each day. He was becoming more of a routine I can’t seem to not have. It was not about me and my man anymore, it was becoming me; my man and him. I was terrified. I am not used to this kind of love. It was definitely wrong but I know he makes me happy which was now lacking in my relationship. I had to stop this. I had to make a decision. One or the other, I had to choose. Either way there will be someone hurting in the end and so, I chose to break the man who has loved with all of his heart. I know I left him not because I have another but because our relationship was not working anymore. We were not happy, and it was not healthy for the both of us to stay any longer.
While I was on the process of healing, I tried to stay away from him but I just don’t know what it is that he has that makes me want to be with him more. He was like a magnet and I was a piece of scrap. Scarred, fed up, and needy.
(to be continued….)
Someday. Somebody’s hand will fit mine. AWW. We dont need to rush. LEt it be.
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